Choices Pt.2 Poem by Joshua Hillard

Time and time again,
Things come as they go,
You become so accustomed,
So permanent feeling begin to grow,

But the changes take their place,
Are you ready for the pain?
To be afflicted as anew,
In a game you thought was true?

See the seconds,
See the minutes,
For the lies,
I begin believin',

For here I am,
Teary eyed,
No fears to bring me,
To the place I wish to die,

Nothing stays consistent,
We stay in a motion,
These focuses of our dreams,
Become a lie, with no devotion,

I am toasted,
In a lie bent so far back,
Can you see what I mean,
When time even loses track,

Please come back,
To what kept me here so long,
Without you I fear,
All this time I was wrong,

No clock can compete,
With the changes of a loss,
It's not only me this time,
Unfortunately there is more of us,

We're bleeding deep inside,
Please shelter me with customs,
Because what I became so used to,
Is fading in the hopes of someone,

Will finally close this curtain,
Burden away a change you take,
But the taking that you take,
From me becomes away,

Instead of gain, I only suffer,
I cannot imagine how life can alter,
Chill before I break,
Around my neck, begin the halter,

Divert me from disaster,
I cannot start from scratch,
No choices can prevent this,
Metaphorical life begins to hatch,

Breeding it's own life to Earth,
Please stop letting me turn pages,
As time continues on,
I continue to live with these changes...

(This time it's x2, and I am not alone. I can see what one has done; as for it may be together, only one loses all, so here I am close the door, seek the knowledge as before, my shoes are worn, no repeat, because for I, am too weak. I must give in... Part 2)