, Consideration And Self-Restraint Poem by Louise Tredoux

So disappointed in myself, thought
I had my temper under control, thought
I was turning into a compassionate person,
but no

Although the ladies prayed for Rudi, and I
am so much obliged; when they came with
irrational demands for contributions and
serving tea

At one of their functions, I got so angry, my
face started to burn, my heart nearly left my
chest, I felt like killing all of them then and
there

What a horrible, passionate person I am, how
can I learn consideration and self-restraint, I
HATE these functions so much, but there is
no need

To be furious, as soon as Rudi is back, I’ll
channel all my energy into loving him and
maybe these angry spells will be less intense;
that is

If these ladies do not wish him secretly dead
after my murderous look, I can’t understand
why I’m such an unteachable person, why I
have no natural love

For sweet, simple, idiotic humanity…