Couldnt See Poem by shondedria daniels

Blinded by lust
I got lost
So I trusted him
And said everything was my fault
Filled with doubt
I walked about like everything was all good
His love being the only food I needed
He filled me
All the way to the full meter
Like fuel
My dedication to him had no measure
Like a letter
He read me
From dear to sincerely
I clearly couldn’t see
He was lying he was using me
Fail for his act
Cause instead of warnings
He texted me every morning
And called me every night
I said to myself
“This love must be right…”
But like so many others
This love was way out of sight
Out of my league
So…
Why bother fight?
Why lie?
Why hide?
When everything done in the dark comes to the light
Lite sparks between us
Bright enough to blind me
Conceive false love
And deceive my mind
Behold-- us
What are we?
Is there really a you and me?
Or maybe even a future?
Could it be?
No it wouldn’t be
But still those dreams haunt my sleep
And my heart beats in my head
Because I think of love constantly
I define love
And the meaning isn’t us
So I rewind back to the beginning
And pause at the day I met you
Hand played over repeat
Than slowly sliding towards delete
I lick my lips
I taste the memory
It was sweet
Sweat rolls down my cheek
I’m nervous
You hate when I’m nervous
Said, “It makes you look weak.”
Strongly cared what you think
And to prove I’m not timid or weak
I speak up
And boldly press delete