Dad Poem by rebekka bear

I shouldnt miss you
But i cant help but to miss you
You where there for me through everything
And then one day you up and leave
Leaving us to fend for ourselves
Leaving mom
It not only hurt her
But it hurt me
You where the one i could talk to
The one i thought i could trust but
Now im not so sure
Youll always be my dad and i want you to know that
Ill never forget you
You where always there when i needed you
When mom and david needed you
Nows the time i need you most
Since you left ive tryed to fill
The broken parts of my heart
But its not possable
All i do is make it worse
I miss you
You where supposed to be there forever
Like you promised
You where supposed to watch me grow up
See me turn 16 and 18
you where supposed to be there when i graduated
When i got married
And when i had kids of my own
I know we didnt always get along but
Dads and daughters fight
My biggest fear is that
When your daughter gets here
Your gonna forget about me
Because shes yours and im not
I used to think i was
When you left i cryed
For days i wouldnt talk to anyone
I slept all the time
I didnt know what was going on
I got up went to school in my pajamas
Cryed all the time
Because i didnt want you to go
Loosing you took a big part of me
A part ill probly never get back
I try to forget
But i will always remember
How you used to put me to bed
How you used to hug me everyday
How when i wanted something all i had to do was ask
How you used to stand up for me when me and mom fought
I miss being able to say thats my dad
I miss always having someone around that could help me
Since you left everyones life has changed
Mines gotten worse
Moms got worse and davids too
But they are gettin better
David has a dad a grandma and grandpa
Who love him
Mom has friends to keep her sane
But me i have noone i can talk to
I have two true friends lizzie and bailey
Some days i wish i was dead
Ive cut myself
Ive thought about suicide
But i know how much it would hurt mom
She lost you she couldnt loose me too
As much as i think she doesnt need me
She really does
Her life without me would be destroyed
She has a big heart
I just wish she could find someone
Who cares as much as she does
To be honest and i wont ever say this out loud but
My moms my hero
Shes stayed strong for me and david and
To watch her go through everything shes gone through
Has made me a strong person
I try not to talk about you in front of mom
Because i know deep down it hurts her when i do
She trys not to show it but i know its true
I know she misses you
Ive herd her say so
I know david misses you
Because everytime i say your name
He gets this little look in his eyes
As much as you think we dont need you we do
Well i do anyway
I miss you so much it hurts
And writing is the only way i can express my feelings
About anything
Writing is the only thing im good at
One day im going to be published
And i hope that when that day happens you go out and buy my book
And i hope you read every poem or story in it
Because ill never for get you and
Im sure there will be something about you in it
Because you made a big impact on my life
You may not relize it now but you did
I miss waking up to the smell of coffee
And the sound of your voice
I miss being able to say i love you dad
But what i miss most is
How you used to say youd always be there for me and
Youd never leave
Now i wish i would have never belived you
S(he) be(lie) ve(s) s(he's) br(ok) en
^ says she believes shes broken....he lies hes ok
Some times i feel that believing you
Would always be around was a stupid mistake
But some times i hope you come back
I will always love you
You will always be my dad even if your not my real dad
Because you where a dad when mine wasnt
And i want to thank you for that
I miss you and i love you and i just had to tell you
How i really feel about you leaving
And i hope you have a good time with your new daughter
And i hope one day ill see you again
And maybe get to meet her
It would be nice to meet my (little sister)
Well thats all i have to say
Stay safe be strong ik ill try my hardest to
Love you GOODBYE