Dawn Mumbles Poem by Izobelle Pulgo

wishing that loving you doesn't hurt
as much as the cold silent loneliness at 4am
when the world is just about to wake up
while i'm still whispering your blasted name.

you didn't play fair
coz you didn't put your heart at stake
yet you played with mine and gambled it away
knowing too well it was all yours to take.

you said 'i love you'
then you said 'goodbye'
you said things you never meant
so how could you,
how could you lie.

there's nothing i could do coz you were never mine
you were just the boy who played with my love's design
tore it, crush it, broke it in two
you were just the boy whom i loved and i still do.

and just as when the sun sets and the darkness creeps in
when the stars blink in the night that is as black as sin,
i should have known, i should have doubt
i should have seen what it was all about -

you were the boy who set out to break my heart
for a game, for a nameless price,
you rolled the dice and begun the lie
for a love story that was destined to die.

for in the aftermath that i cried,
when you are nothing but a dark shadow from whom i couldn't hide,
i wept bitter tears for a boy who was never mine but whom I loved,
i'll be okay, this is my life,
i'll be f*cking fine.