Dear Lana Poem by Tara O'Connell

consumed by darkness and lonely thoughts
i wish it was me that had taken your path
i wish this wasn't mean't to be
i wish this was clearly obviously foreseen

it hurts so much
like a dagger piercing straight through my torchered heart
how could this possibly be
i can't control the anger and hatred that i now feel

i'm scarred for life
this memory shall never fade
the moment i found out
that ill be visiting you at your grave

i wasn't prepared for what my father had to say
23 years of life so easily blown away
that was the darkest day that i shall ever live to see
nothing will ever compare to how i feel

i sit here cold and angry at the world
for what its so selfishly taken away from me
life will never be the same
existing just seems like a never ending pain

your face inked on my arm for eternity
you'll always be by my side and looking over me

ill never forget seeing your face one last time
so peaceful and still like the silent night sky
i just wanted you to take a breath, no more games i beg

maybe one day the darkness will fade away and ill see the sunlight shimmering away

but one thing i do know for sure
i'm going to miss you big sis
not a day goes by where i don't think about all the memories that i'll miss