Dear Lord Poem by Yuliia Lapushanska

I don't know what's going on
Should I keep it clean
Should I lie
Or should I being still

Dear Lord
What is going on
What is the anxiety
That keeps alive my nerves
Dear God
Dear Lord
Dear Son and my only one
I hat is going on
In my soul
In my life
Is it mine
Or should I keep it clean
By being no one in Your dream
Dear Lord
I stopped control my life
And I can't say I like it
The results

I have You my whole permission
To make moves
But what
Is
Freaking on

Why all these people continue to bless others
Who are not under Your protects
Why jealousy ruins my nerves
Why I can't breath at night
Why I cry every time
Hearing this ask
About us

God
What is going on
What is your plan
Which
Can You keep me whole
Because I am breaking every single night
Every single breath
Feels like Vulcan
And they don't hear
My cry

My voice is silent
As it was
And still is
Dear God
Why have You stopped counting me as your princess
When have I forgotten Your silent presence
What is about Your gentleness

God I need You I can't

God
What is going on
With my life
They count me as nobody
I am here
But for You or against him

Am I here to be honest
Or to avoid troubles

Do I exist here for sure
Or is it still a movie night

I am here
Dear Lord
Where is voice
I have missed Your blessing
And now
Nobody needs me
It started to be not a game

They are successful
Happy
Honest
And just all in all
But what about me

All these influencers
Singers motivators
They are cool
But what about me

Dear Lord
What is going on
Where I am and where I go
Where are You I'm still journey
Will You keep me safe

My jealousy is overwhelming
Recreation
Of something that past forever
My emotions are still on down

I don't know what's going on
But trust You
It's only choice
Possible
Alive
For me

What is going on
Lord show me
In a silent dream
Private vision
What is going on
And where I go

I need to know
What You are talking
In this silent confusion
War of thoughts