Dear Sister Poem by Lost Found

these tears i fight
this endless night
this pain deep inside
you have a hallow heart
and a non exsisting soul
nothing was ever as you wanted
did you get pleaser from my crys?
was that your constint high?
did you get pleasure from my pain?
the memorys haunt me
i feel your endless blows
i hear the screams in my ears
what have i ever done
what did i do to make you hate me so
where was i in your heart
im afraid to love
im afraid to trust
every i love you is a lie
i finaly see
im not worthy of love
im nothing at all
is this what you wanted
what you prayed for at night
are you finaly proud
i cant take anymore
you've finaly won
6 years since we've talked
i still cant see the light
im ashamed of who i am
im afraid of who i've become
oh sister
are you happy now
your own flesh and blood
with the mark of death on her hand
why didnt you kill me when you had the chance?
lord knows you tried
show some pitty
but you never could get enough