Decision... Poem by May N

there's a place in my mind
where emotions are not welcome
thoughts drift wordlessly
blank silence fills the void

a kind of numbness spreads
paralyzing me in place
unable to comprehend my surroundings
and the answers around me

when my thoughts turn to you
i see the past and the present
where everything is fading
unable to keep them from disappearing

and when my thoughts turn to the future
everything is black; nothingness exist
i'm blinded for hours as i think
but i cannot see anything but darkness

now i ask myself if it is worth the trouble
when i cannot see my future with you
but it is a struggle to let you go
my love for you burns but is quickly extinguishing

i think of ways to keep my love burning
but you are making it very difficult
still in blank numbness, i reach for answers
only to have them yanked away by you

my mind thinks endlessly as i sit
coming up with solutions for this problem
now i shift my attention to reality
and i open my emotions as i make my decision

my mind is reeling as the words drift out from me
and i watch your face take in my words
watching you walk away with a blank expression
as my words finally reach my ears, ' Good Bye'