Denial Is Catching Up To Me Poem by mona martinez

you know not everything is fine,
when you catch yourself lying,
just to make what you doing,
seem alright to keep doing,
like somehow it will all work itself out,
and it will be this magical dream,
that you been dreaming all along,
just to wake up and you all alone,
it feels like a drug,
i want to quit,
but i feel like the pain,
will be alot worse if i do,
i'm trying to find this balance,
but it's hard,
first i have to accept,
where i went wrong,
and move on from there,
there are so many things i rather be doing,
but that will be taking the easy way out,
where have that really gotten me?
right back in the same spot,
wondering where i went wrong,
i have nobody to blame,
but myself,
yes, my past may have interfered a bit,
but i made the choice to be stubborn,
and make a mistake i'm regretting.