Despair Poem by Ashley Davis

I've been dealt so many bad hands
When I finally get a good one
I feel like it isn't real
That it will disappear
It makes me scared to believe in anything
Afraid if I do it will fall apart
Looking back in my past
Seeing people leave me
Get taken from me
Makes me not want to open up
Don't want to feel that hurt again
So hard for me to believe
Tired of asking for some to save me!
What am I supposed to do? !
I wonder if i still even have a heart
Its been broken so many times
I'm not sure what is left
Wanting that someone people always talk about
Have the love I know is out there
So desperate but not willing
To break that wall and give it my all
Maybe there's something wrong with me
I'm just damaged
And will never be repaired...