Destined To Fall Poem by Angelique' Rockwell

It's just another New Year
Not even a drop of snow
Just found out my uncle had passed
I think it was a month ago

I don't know how I'm supposed to feel
But I do know that it hurt
I feel like I should have known sooner
Maybe even been on alert

But that side of the family it's usual
For no one to say a word
If it had been someone else's family
That would have been absurd

It's okay though
As always, I'll be alright
Happy New Years to me
I'm the only one up tonight.

It isn't the first time
It won't be the last, don't get me wrong
But I've got a new guy now
And I had thought the loneliness had passed

It's a holiday, he wanted to smoke
Now he's all passed out
I'm the only one left awake
To wallow in this doubt

Did I leave one man
For exactly the same type?
I love them both differently
The attraction was overly ripe

I'm not the same girl
That I was five years ago
I think I'm very different
From my head to'my toe

But the pain is the same
It doesn't change at all
Maybe it's all up in my head
Or maybe I'm just destined to fall.

12/31/09