Dialogue With The Lord (I) Poem by Don Nguyen

Dearest Lord,
I had expressed a desire to walk away, to focus in my former life of prayers;
But contrary is Thy desire for Thy humble servant to stay, even battered and bruised;
Thy servant just longed to spare her all pains and suffering, by my absence
But Thy divine Will is to establish earthly chorus to sing in tandem with the heavenly one.
Now my enemies has circled around me, to move in for a kill
I simply wanted to sing love song to praise Thee, my Lord God, and to show the world to sing along.
Why are they so persistent Oh Lord to subject my soul to profound anguish and utmost despair?
What have I done to them besides sharing with them my love songs?
The eloquence and magnificence of Thy words which carry supernatural immense poetic beauty,
The beauty which has unrivaled counterpart in the earthly realm, which in turn creates much praises and also demonic jealousy,
Which in turn has caused Thy servant much emotional assaults and anguishes.
I don’t know how long I can hold out with rejoicing and courage
While facing ruthless and inhuman devilish snares.
Lord, come quickly to Thy servant’s side to lend a firm support;
In sorrows, not in fear, he now implores Thy divine help transport.
And I don’t intend to cry or display to Thee my insecure weakness
In carrying Thy divine Will and mission;
But Thy servant he cannot help but wonder,
Why all these trials and tribulations?

Soul, Thy once had expressed the desire to be My second David
To sing psalms in love and praise to please Thy God with the harps strings of thy heart;
Thus, thy life will now bear the precise resemblance to my ancient beloved Psalmist;
Blessed be Thou who was molded after My own Heart.

My Beloved Lord, I am forever grateful for such high esteemed honor,
Now most willing to plunge in ocean of pains
Into dark hidden valleys, full of unknown
For courage Thy providence, to Thy unworthy servant, has supplied
Nothing I need to pursue the divinely designed course;
For nothing on this earth or beyond earth can separate Thy servant from the love of Christ.

So why does now Thy servant tremble with uncertainty and fear?
When his enemies circle and prey around her, my Lord?
Oh, how do I wish they focus on me instead;
But why her? But it must be her since in her is my weakest most vulnerable trait.
I always have known right from beginning
That she has to go through the painful spiritual purification according to Thy merciful design
In order for her to be purified, to be converted to become one of Thy finest daughters.
But it is so hard, so long, so painful, Oh Lord;
While her cries pierces my heart and penetrates deep to Thy heavenly Throne.
I had thought my feeling for her was gone,
But somehow I still carry her pain in my own heart!

It is not lust, Lord, Thou know it is not
As it has never been lust due to the supernatural intervention
Without any physical contact, or even with enticed suggestions.
It is never lust for Thy holy Design could never been defiled
By any human factors especially from Thy faithful servant.

Due to his weakness and my poor heart,
Thy servant did succumb to his weak moments of romantic passions
For these errors his soul and being had been pierced
Like thousand fiery heavenly divine justice darts.

Thus, it is no longer romance from a human heart.
Why does Thy servant still feel so much pain within
When his beloved suffers the barbaric assaults in his place?
As it seems part of my heart has been taken to be grafted on hers.

Soul, Thy heart is designed to suffer along with hers
For the bud of love to grow and flourish
By My ancient perfect Design.

I, thy Lord and God, have summoned thy heart for My divine purpose
But by free will, which I now honor, without slightest force or persuasion;
I now solemnly ask thy intention in the matter of heart
In order to endure, to obey, to surrender for My salvation Plan.

My Lord and my God, Thou had formed me;
I have known Thee all my life;
I have loved Thee with my whole heart;
I have loved Thee with my whole strength;
I have loved Thee beyond any human measurement;
Thus, there is nothing which can stand between Thee and my heart
Even a piece of my own heart which is my most tender love for her!

Lord, take everything is mine to be Thine.
Please have mercy on her.

Amen