Dieing Slow Poem by Raouf Reda

As I run away into darkness
afraid from light
Pretend to live in blindness
Ignoring my sight

Pain had griped me
I couldn’t be released
From my problems I run
Changing in to a beast

I am helpless, can you see
Shocked with fright
From the beast within me
Can’t sleep all night

As I close my eye
I shiver with fear
Doing nothing but cry
Cause the beast is here

Insanity is dragging me
So in hell I will fall
A beast I will always be
Nothing will heal my soul

Crying and screaming
How could I fight
With all of my being
And all of my might

Waiting for morning
So, I can remain awake
Hear nothing but storming
As fear made my body shake

For God I’ll pray & fast
To have mercy on me
So I can forget my past
And diminish the beast I’ll be

I awaken in sweat
Yet I am very cold
It all started as a child
You’ll out grow it, I was told.

But the truth I know
Pain in my blood is blend
Dieing slow
Longing for an end