Different Poem by Amanda Eckols

Am I really so different?
A breed all of my own
Thought never show before
No-one takes the time to understand
I haven’t the patience to explain
The flood of my soul is the never end thoughts
My tears are the raindrops to let the world see
I hide in darkness for they laugh at me
Stepping into the light to shine
Smiles mask they pain, they don’t want to see
I can almost make myself believe
There’s nothing wrong, lies come so easily
The bad dream is over
I see the different between life and death
And feel my self slipping closer
Just one more step, the biggest of all
I wish all the people would let me go
I feel their gaze, I hear the whispers
I know what their saying I just don’t care
Yet on the inside I feel my heart tear
It’s already broken beyond repair
Bruises and scars that will never heal
Just close my eyes It will son be over
They’ll say its was sad and too bad
Then I’ll become part of a statistic
Looking back I have to wonder
Who would I be if I had listened?
So many time they told me NO
It would of be so much easier
To just conform, so not me
But how could I be happy
The sorrow that my choices carved into me
The joy I feel for the little things
Love and appreciation I have for everything
Would it all change if I were to be
Just what they want out of me
I would be sad not to live out my dreams
And to the world a whole different way to be
Hope is still here, how ever small
Perhaps I’ll prevail and live to show them all
One day at a time, One thought pushed out of mind
The bad is tied to the good, the best comes with the worst