Distant Poem by bhoumik choudhary

I wanna say so much but I cannot find the voice to do so
my every thought is consumed in you
yet my words seem lost
every time we try to talk we can not
every time we try to meet we can not
I feel comfort in my room
I feel comfort in not talking to anyone besides you
I can live a thousand years of solitude at least that's what I thought before meeting you
seems like the world is still trying to tame me
it says don't grow close or you'd get burnt
I said set a man on fire and he'd be warm for the rest of his life
this world my life had made me cold and distant and alone
flame me to purgation
free me of myself
I'll struggle beautifully even if the world tries its best to tame me
even so. These strong feelings
whenever I pick up your call
all my knowledge, experience, skill and the little courage I had let starts to mildew
on that spring morning you ascended to my heights and caressed my tender branches
and now you shake my roots to their clinging
you gave me nothing but your affection
and I took not but you affection
but I feel short and unmanly
calm yet turbulent
unbreakable yet breakable
you changed me I thought I evolved
metamorphosis
into whatever I had become now