Do Not Know Poem by heavens Angel

there are things that i have done
that i am not proud of
should have known better
but sat there quiet and still
should not have gone there but i did
i look back now and realise
that somethings in life
you can never keep
no matter how hard you try
there is a part of you that will die
i have died and come back
to make a difference
to the people that i can
maybe to re-do
the things that I have done wrong
to live through the things I have not experinced
to have love and suceed
to finally be at peace
to be loved
and not? as to why
to not look bad upon myself
and? everything i do
maybe to finally get what i want
to go for it and not be afraid
to love is hate
to hate is to love
to die is to live
to live is to die
there is no such thing as a little white lie
they all add up
and cause pain and guilt
i do not know