Dream Poem by Amanda Eckols

panicked dream plays through my mind
capturing my heart, chilling my soul
a cold sweet breaks my brow
startling awareness of what’s to come
I wake not wanting to suffer twice
Sure it will come just not tonight

in the beginning I want just fun
we promised each other nothing
but it was not an affair
too young was I to hold him
a child in so many ways
still live life through dreams


forever since I saw him
forever I have missed
the cool embrace of his warming lips
the fire he lights inside me
that I hide in shame and fear
too old is he too experienced

the rules were laid down before hand
the rules we went and broke
and though we were in the same house
two different lives we lead
both are marked by tragedy
perhaps that’s why I dream

I long for him to come
but the world held him back
miss trusted us together
thought I would of never done that
I dream not wanting not to suffer twice
sure of whats to come even if it not tonight