Dreams Poem by Petra Soliman

I wish you only knew how i feel,
It kills me to know together forever won't come true,
It torments me to know you are in love again,
I thought i wouldn't care but i was wrong,
You are happy, and it's not fair,
What happened to the day you came back to me?
Said that you were a better man,
Said you never felt love without me
But now i'm another ex-girlfriend on your list,
I'm just a person you use to fill up your emptiness,
You run to me when you need love,
And once you get all you want,
You throw me away, mistreat me,
God knows i haven't done wrong to you
Yet you twist everything around,
I am to be blamed all the time,
If it makes you fine then so be it,
But baby i don't understand why,
You keep treating me so horribly,
And all i do is just love you more and more,
Not a day passes by without weeping,
This heartache is far too painful,
And no matter how much i cry,
I know you'll never care,
Im filled up with sorrow and misery,
Nothing will take the pain away,
Not even a knife,
Why did you say you need me?
Why did you say all those lies to keep me?
You should of known,
Those things meant so much,
But i should of known better,
You brainwashed me,
I can hardly say a cruel word about you,
Your name brings so much pain,
Your letters break me down,
I knew this would happen but i went with it,
I knew i would be like this,
The day you said you love me,
I knew only one broken heart is how it'll end,
Whos crying now?
Whos weeping and dying?
Didn't i say i wanted to feel safe baby?
This isn't safe,
Didn't you understand the things i told you?
The letters i wrote to you?
They were no lies,
Believe me there was truth in all those dreams that i told,
I listen to our song,
And i keep thinking,
How did you manage to mess my head up so badly?
I can't deny the truth,
Your not worth anything, it hurts me
And i'll never stop loving you,
Your still the one i want for life,
Your still the...one.