Emergency Room (Pt 2) Poem by Vanessa Kingsley

Soft beeps woke me to a world
I do not know
Something inside of me stirs restlessly
Nothing is truly entering my mind
Except I’ve left something behind
And I feel more than wrong
Looking around, tears threaten to spill out
What have I done now?
Like a wave you’re not aware of
Images hit me hard
Days, weeks, months, years
Float by like bright stars
Tears I’ve cried
Times I’ve died
Render me hopelessly lost
To the pain again
I have no regrets
About any of this
I’ve cried
I’ve tried
I’ve carried on
I’ve lied
I’ve died
And moved on
I’ve forgiven too many times
I’ve bought so many lies
I’ve talked
And preached
And tried to help out
Yet I’m the one who’s turned inside out
You never know what you have until it’s gone
I’ve been gone for so long
You’ve been just fine
Before darkness consume me once again
An image of a friend
Knocks me down