Everyone Poem by ESPN CHICK

Everyone thinks I'm doing just fine
The way I wear my smile
But its so broken and they see right through

Everyone just knows I'm doing better
If only they could see
If only they knew
The inside of me is torn up still

The pain is still there
I'm still alone
But they don't know

Everyone around me can not see that I'm living a lie
I wonder why they can not see it
I swear its written all over me
I'm beautifully broken and no one knows but me

How I'm tired of this pain and I've tried to rid it but it just won't go away
Everyday I wake I dread that I'm still here
When I've tried hard to die in the past

Although I still wonder what life would be like with me gone
But something inside of me keeps holding me here
It hurts to know that everyone sees right through
And I still hate what I see in the mirror each and everyday

Everyone thinks I'm doing better
But the truth of the matter is I'm not
I'm still broken and bruised

Battered by all the things from the past
They cling to me and I don't know why
The pain is still stuck to me like glue
Wish they could see that I'm not okay and I will never be

Sept 5,2008