Explosion-4 Poem by Scarlet .....

its coming
that moment I’ve feared
the explosion
I can feel it
it will come soon
it will break me soon
for the beast will be unleashed soon
I used to fear what it would do
but not anymore
I used to fear if I will survive the explosion
but I no longer care
I used to fear that it would hurt the people around me
but I now know it will only hurt those who created it
I do not worry for them
because they have earned whatever will happen to them
for they all helped create it
not one of them tried to help control it
they just let me struggle to survive with it
they just let me lock it in side of me to protect them
they all fed it all these years
and still never helped
and now I’m sick of hiding what they created
I’m sick of it ripping me to pieces inside
I’m sick of suffering for what they did
so now I’m so numb I no longer feel the pain
all I feel is anger
for that is the beast
it is starting to take control
I must release it before I lose all control
but now all I can do is laugh
for they will never expect what is coming
for they have never noticed the monster locked inside of me
and if they did they never cared
well they will now
for it will now move to live within them
all I can say is let them feel the pain I’ve felt for the last 4 years
just let them have a taste of what it feels like to be me
what is takes to be me
I know that sounds bad
but I don't care
usually I would be worried
for there is now way to tell if I will survive the explosion
but u no longer care
for I will be free of the beast
for at least awhile
I know it will eventually return
for I am the one it calls home