~facing Truth~ Poem by Soulful One

awakening from
a seemingly deep slumber
to the realization that
my life does not coincide
with the dreams of
happily-ever-after and
the love I once
believed in
hoped for and
prayed would last always
has been crushed
under the weight
of “forever” expectations
awakening to realize
I’ve existed through my own life
on auto-pilot
caught up in
situations and circumstances
unhappily entangled with
the life of another that has been
perpetuated by lies and illusions
created by me
lured by the hope of
potential and possibility
that things would miraculously change
that we could change
that she would…
that hope allowed me to
delay and even deny
the inevitability of
facing the truth
of my present reality
that I have betrayed my own heart
and lost connection with my own soul
because of fear
and woundedness
I have tied myself to another
who has been unable
to meet my deeper needs of
being seen
being heard
honoring my spirit
creating intimacy with
both myself and her
that our once conjoined paths
had now diverged
and she could no longer accompany me
on my journey of actualization
just as I was unable to accompany her
on her journey
each unwilling to
face the truth
that we can’t be
won’t be
all that we are suppose
to be and become
with the one we are tied to
and the costs
the sacrifice of
realizing that actualization
is the temporary pain of letting go
letting go of
the lies and illusions of self deception
letting go of
the future hope of potential and possibility
letting go of
fear and healing my wounds
letting go of
whomever or whatever
has held me back from being
who I am meant to be
and discovering that sometimes
oft times more than i want
or am willing to believe
is that letting go of
the hope of what might be
and dealing with
the reality of what is…
by facing the truth
can be the greatest act of love

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