Fallen Wasp Poem by shami giles

Night washes in like a sea of poison over my world


While deafness immerses me in a quiet subtle whirl


You knew I was fallen; you knew of my wounds


You knew of the walls that I built around me


I assumed you were true


You allowed me the broken wasp the time to
become anew


I allowed myself to believe in you

I’d escape from reality when you were here


Because when I was with you the perception of life seemed so clear


But I know in my heart this illusion would soon just disappear


I’m a fallen wasp when you leave


So every time you’d ascend
I’d become numb these layers of me start peeling off


I want you to see

Gently this wasp shall fall; with no wings to lift me up


No arms to hold me tight as I sleep


Only the things you left behind

I wish i could release this emotional bind


Every time I would bleed


This fallen wasp wants to die


And constantly cries


Tears of anguish for a while


Later I know the wasp would smile


I know when I look at you my layers are back on
The person you showed me was so false


I know when I’d stare at you; I thought you were the one


I know when I look in your eyes that hold a maze of mysterious depths


Nothing is wrong


I know that you make me strong


I know that I was strong all along


I know that I’m safe


I wish I did not remember your face


I know that you love me when I’m a fallen wasp

I know that you hate me cause i see through it all


I know you hate to leave me a fallen wasp


I know that you are the one that should fall


I know I should stop protecting you from it all


With only old memories


This night washes over


It is no longer poison


You are no longer my poison