Fear Of Being Alone Poem by EMMA Funnell

I've never wanted anything in life,
Apart from to be loved.
But no-one could put enough effort into loving me.
As all I get is hate.
They just left me in the ground.
Alone in the cold dark dirt.
All they've ever done is lie to me.
Never gave a damn about me.
Made me feel like dying.
I've always been alone.
Yet I fear loneliness like the plague.
Tears forming in my eyes.
Blood running down my skin.
As I fade into the darkness.
I see no light.
Feel no love.
All there is, is pain.
Driving me to insanity.
I slowly lose my mind.
As I sit here alone.
Loneliness has always been my enemy
And yet it is my best friend.
I can't make sense of any of this.
Never have been able to open my eyes.
Scared of being alone.
Yet I'm always on my own.
Love is unknown to me.
It's dead in my eyes.
My heart is forever aching.
Chills run down my spine.
Whenever I think of all the pain they put me through.
The fists attacking my poor defenseless body.
With only loneliness to protect me.
Fear enters my damaged head.
As loneliness creeps in.
Why am I still here?
I don't want to be here anymore.
Yet I can't bring myself to do it.
As much as I want to end the loneliness.
I can't seem to bring the knife close enough.
I'm scared of my feelings.
Yet I can't let them flow through my tears.