Five Truths Poem by Nickey Mason

#1. i truely feel clueless. i feel like i
have been absolutely invisible the
whole time. but no one evers sees
me because dont no one gets me.
its like me going out in the middle
of the street and a car was coming
but no one tells me to look out. they
just stare as the car fly down the street.

#2. im not as vulerable as i may seem.
before i met you, it was like 'f*ck you or
get the f*ck on. i can do better.' i was a
g lol but its just you mybaby. its ya love
that is making me so weak and quietly confused.

#3.i really do care. its just that i have learned
not to care. in my past relationship, when he
cheated, it was like'im sorry or this isnt what
it looks like' and he would do it again constantly.
but i was the only one he was f*cking so i was satisified.

#4. i dont really care if you hang out with ya crew, just
dont do nothing violent with them. reason why is about
two weeks ago, one of my friends was killed in a
drive-by in broad daylight. it wasnt even his fight.
it was this one boy who was beefing with one of
his boys and im like stay out of this cause this one
not yo battle and he listened. so him and his boy
was at the candy store that they reopened and his
boy was like 'ill be back, going 'round the corner'
and he left out. My friend walks out the store and
a van pulls up and two boys started shooting at him,
he pulls out his gun and starts shooting back. he shoots
and kills one of the boys and then the other boy shoots
and kills him. he was only 19. i was upset but i wasnt
gonna cry. but what made me tear up was seeing
his two year daughter walk over and climb on top of his body
saying 'daddy wake up, you cant sleep out here. you
have to go home and get in the bed.' she turns and looks
at her mama and starts crying saying 'mama, daddy wont
get up.' and i just broke down. so that was a reality check
for me. i shedded a few tears for him and i be damned if i
cry a whole river because something den happened to you.

#5. umm.....i was a lil hurt when you said you wished those
twins were yours. all that was just telling me that you cant wait
to have them with me. i mean i want them just as bad as you do
but some people will do anything to get what they want even
if its not with the person they was planning it with.

-La'Veranique
*aka*
dat girl nickey