Font Color=darkvioletwhat I’ll Never Admit Poem by Jane Meyer

She tells me,
that she’s no longer responsible,
that she’s no longer the cause of my pain,
that from here on out,
it’s all me.

What I don’t say,
is that I know.
I know I’m the one
who controls the hurt that I feel.
I figured that one out months ago.

Yet I still do it.
I’m still inflicting the pain.
I don’t want to let go.
And I don’t want to move on.

Because I know the pain,
and a part of me enjoys it.