For Dear Gary (In Waiting) Poem by Fallen Too Far

I see your name, and I nearly cry
I had never realized how much I miss it all
Your words are like a hug
Soft and familiar and I never want them to end
I let them soak through me as a smile lights up my face
And I read them again, making my heart tug

I am missing you, through the day
And carrying on to the night
I see your face, but hear no voice
It's the way it has to be

I'm living, like I always did
Strong, but mostly ailing
At the pull on my heart
It happens so often
Lifted only by a mountain top
Momentarily
There is so much
Can you hear it
Maybe I will blog it
Would you like that?
So modern, so cliche
Yet, you will know
And
My hand has been shaking
And the block has risen
Since we stopped exchanging
Words
So this may make no sense
Please
Let it; try.
I want you to know that I am well
But that I am

Missing you.

Bear my thoughts gently
For my own heart can't even support them
Let alone release them

It's acid rain to burn and die
The soul I know I own

I am sinking
Drowning
Suffocating
All

Can you hear me?

But I am smiling
Like you taught me.
I hold it to my heart always
And ever will


I love you
Still