For Eli Poem by Annie Badillo

your love is a great
love.
but your love is
the biggest burden i
have ever carried.

knowing that i am shaping
the very core of you
scares me.
terrifies me even in my dreams.

knowing that right now
when i want to be free
is also the time that
your love will be at

it’s highest point.
but i can’t help but be
a tad bit
apathetic

i am stupid and
i am young and so
i will continue to think
that i have time to

make life up to you.
but by the time i realize that i don’t
it will be too late
and you will hate me.

i wish that you hated me now
so that you could maybe
grow to love and
understand me later.