Forever Poem by Alice Silvers

That day is forever etched into my mind. Every feeling I had then, I feel it today as real as I did then. It's like it happened not just once, but keeps happening over and over in my mind just as it did that day. I try, my god I try, to erase it ever so slightly, so I won't have to feel it over and over but no matter how much I try, I can't even ease the pain. When I had to let go that day, I let go of myself as well. I can't go back to normal. It changed me, forever. It kills me inside when I think of having to live with this horrible weight forever bearing down on me. I can't recover. Everyone expects me to, they expect I can just move on, not look back, as if it never happened. Well, it did, and it changed me. I can't change that. No one can bring me back to who I was. Ever.