Forgive Me, Mother Poem by Celeste Kingi

let the secrets be revealed and the truth be spoken,
let my heart be fixed and no longer broken.
let my thoughts be clear, clouded no more
let me see the right path, let me be sure.

help me follow through on the choice i make
help me with the strength i need not to break.
help my mum understand that this is what i need,
help her realize i need to be freed.

show her that this was of my own doing
show her the truth, that she couldn't have known.
show her it was my fault that i had to leave,
show her I'm sorry, sorry to deceive.

sorry for all the things i didn't do right,
sorry for causing so many fights.
sorry for hurting her and only thinking of myself,
sorry that me living with her didn't work out.

i need a home that's stable and happy,
i need a place where the people there want me.
i need to do what is right for me,
i need to be where i want to be.

give me the chance to do the right thing,
give me the courage i need to be me.
give me the strength i need to move on,
give me a home where i finally belong.

make me forget all the times that i cried,
make me forget all the horrible lies.
make me forget all of my mistakes,
make me forget that i was too late.

too late to realize their was nothing we could do,
too late to tell you what i was going through.
too late to see things weren't alright,
too late to prevent all of the fights.

forgive me for not fixing all of the problems we had,
forgive me for yelling and getting mad.
forgive me for the things i put you through,
forgive me for what I'm going to do