Free Write Poem by Vaida Marea

I never realized relationships were so hard
I probably wasn't ready for this
The amount of self reflection
The purging of my emotional baggage
The skills required
I really have to work to survive in this
Recognizing that I have feelings
They scare me
But must be felt to be controlled
Letting things go
'Will this matter twenty years from now...? '
If we even make it that long...
And here it is
'Jealousy is agitated, angry worry.'
Been a worrier all my life
Filled with more anger than I knew
So green eyes must have always been a part of me
And I'm trying to trust
But I don't ever feel good enough
At least not good enough to stay faithful to
And again that comes down to self reflection
The purging of my emotional baggage
The skills required
If I really want to survive in this


(5/8/11)