Giving Up On Freedom Poem by joshua reid

I don't know why I feel this way
I try to tell myself it's okay
But everytime I do so
I just go and find another foe
My strength weakens, each and everyday
As I go home and hear more controversial things to say
Sometimes I just feel like dying
Everytime I start feeling good, there's another bad timing
That comes in and ruins things
I might not be good, but inside my heart sings
For any problems that anyone is having
Because half of the time, I also have'em
I feel like I give more than I get
God says we get back, but what the heck
Is up with this, I can't take no more
I can't see the light, so shut you door
People always talking about me, behind my back
I can't stop thinking I'm gonna get stabbed where I'm at
All I can say is that I'm trapped