God's Mistake Poem by Joshua Hillard

No one knows how it feels,
To struggle like this every night,
The feeling knowing our beloved God is gone,
So scared we'll never find that light,

My family all knows life is lost for me,
It is just a place I wish not to exist,
But it seems like all the pain I am and face,
Can only continue, it'll forever persist,

You can call me misery as it is my name,
My lifestyle in this world forever to be strong,
Life is only a back and forth motion,
Like a game I'm played - retro pong,

So what do I do in this new found life?
Should I continue or should I just let go?
Face the pain or watch it ease pass,
I guess it's something I'll never know,

The only way I could possibly find it,
Is to take the chance and let life scream loose,
Like I said, a suicide only to exist in this world,
Life or death is the only thing I can choose,

So I must let go,
Because this misery will fade like the wind,
God made a mistake in His new creation,
Even He made his very first sin,

It was my creation,
As life has no new possibilities for example,
It was a mistake He made and used as a trial,
So I live my life as His very first sample,

Tonight is no other night I've faced,
I just don't want to suffer the pain in my new life,
One day I'll live, or one day I will die,
All I have to do is wait for which one is right...