Going Round In Circles Poem by Hannah Davies

I am so tired
Sick of all the questions being fired.
My head wants to go pop
I'm begging for it all to stop.

I dream of dying
I hate crying.
At times I want my life to end
A broken heart is difficult to mend.

I keep things bottled up inside
Although some emotions are difficult to hide.
Why am I so scared?
They say a problem halved, is one that's shared.

I don't know what to say
Just wish it would all go away.
Maybe it's just meant to be?
That everyone eventually abandons me.

I have really tried
But there are so many people who have lied.
Things start to improve
And I feel I'm on the move.

But before I know it, I'm back at square one
I feel so angry because I know they have won.
I make out that I'm better than I am
When the truth be known, my whole life's a sham.

I want to let certain people in
But when it comes to it, I don't know where to begin.
Suppose they don't really care
And I wake up one day to find they're no longer there.

I couldn't go through all that again
People say I will get over it, but can't tell me when.
I want to believe what they say
That things will get better one day.

But how do they know?
Have they ever felt this low?
They don't know everything
They're unable to know what the future will bring.

Lets say they are right
And I battle on with this fight.
Will this end my depression?
Can I move on with succession?