Gone Friend Poem by Zooni Bee

For the Past 15 minutes
I've been wondering about all the infinite's
of what life gave and took away
And actually I'm here and i don't know what to say
I met lots of people
and lost important ones
will i ever get you back?
my whole day goes thinking about that
Is God going to help me?
or i have to try
and live helplessly and cry?
i lack the courage
and fear the outcome
i feel wrath for myself
and stupidity at every move
and cant do anything to prove
that I'm totally lost
in my own soul
smiling does hide the hurt
but never gains the same laugh again
At home, theirs the same rain
and in school the the inner pain
You feel lonely, totally alone
Imagining life could be so different, If we could go right back to the past and change it
but realizing the fact you can't, it destroys you completely
Friends are my life
One gone and now incomplete
I cant compete
Time is rolling
with the person's feelings..
I need to talk now but guts kill you.