Had I Not Stayed With You Poem by Onalethuso Petruss Ntema

now i live not a moment of each tear
my eyes so dry to see me clear
for this year
it were all pain of no care
a year
of struggles but no pay
that never did come my way
a year
of plain and square
a season of gain but so unfair

for had i not stayed with you so near
the blame; all within the air
thou lived not in fear
and lived of no fear
with you not so near
the one little voice unclear
crying for me in tear
but help not i offered my dear
distanced by thoughts not with you
and you see not what fits you
but rather dwell in astray to defeat you

had i not shared with you
all that i had with you
had i not admired you
all that i treasured were you
had i not smiled with you
had i not tried with you
memories faded away with you
the roar in your voice;
left me so bare and lame
the soul to mine were not the same
and need(ed) me not with you

but, had i not stayed with you
the history of mine without you
demands a journey to my own
and you not so near
the blame; all within the air
thou lived not in fear
and lived of no fear
with you not so near
the one little voice unclear
as you faded away without care


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'had i not stayed with you'
from **patterns of life**
november 2011

onalethuso petruss ntema