Heartache...It Sucks Poem by Mallory Stephens

im sick
this heartache
this pain
is all too much
to bear and to take all in
im hopelessly
and desperately
in love with u
beggin for u
to be in my arms
and forever be mine
once again
and once and for all
im tryin to find
peace, love, and security
ur like my addiction
and ur the drug thats
makin it worse
and impossible to get over
i dont know how to resist u
or control myself when ur near
forever and always i want to be urs
and in return...
i want u to be mine
so badly
ill fight
ill pray
i will do w/e it takes
to get on track with u
living with so much
guilt and regret
is so hard
when ur livin a lie
and u hurt someone
in the process
to be so ashamed of oneself
seems so unreal
but that regret
that shamefulness
that hurt
that guilt
i live with it
everyday
all of the time
cause everytime i see ur face
i realize what i let go
i realize how selfish
and stupid i was
so here i sit
begging for u to forgive me
and date me once more
ive been feelin this hurt too long
someone rescue me
from this shame
and misery
i live in every passing
day and moment of my life!