Hindsight Poem by Angelique' Rockwell

I spent half my life
Trying to be someone else
Now I'm trying to be me
But honesty is not what sells

I'm tired of trying to act
Like someone I am not
But many people don't appreciate
And when I say some, I mean alot

Why was I trying so hard?
Now I just want to be
But everytime I turn around
Its negativity that I see

I know my kids are involved
Please don't think I'm blind
But how can they respect me
If I'm not one of a kind

Like is like a rollercoaster
It has its ups and downs
Everyone works for the circus
Down to the mimes and the clowns

There is a seperation
Between fantasy and the truth
Defining the definition
Sometimes you must be a sleuth

Lord only knows
That I pray every day
To do my best in making happy
The people with whom I play

I want to be responsible
I want to open people's eyes
I want to end the sadness
I want to stop all the lies

So when the hurt is finished
And the healing begins
I ask God to ease the pain
And to forgive all the sins

I think whatever we endeaver
Makes us who we become
And if you're a good person
It'll show when all said and done

So please keep all this in mind
Whenever you hit or scream
Not everything exactly is
Whatever it may seem

5/19/2006