I Am (I Write) Poem by Anita Khelawan

I write of love, of hate, of anguish
But not of what is
..who is Anita Crystal Rose Khelawan
Anita named after the sultry sensation Anita Baker
Crystal... a nomenclature given by my father
An appellation used solely by my grandmother
Rose..so delicate the best of its kind
And like that flower it reflects my frame of mind
A rose does not bare just one color
The rose's semblance emulates a description of my character
I am a red rose - courageous & respectful
I am a black rose - mysterious &
I am a yellow and white rose - gracious & joyful
But i am 'Crystal Rose'
Khelawan a surname that's frozen in time
Khelawan I am lead to believe it's a fabricated name
It represents a new start relinquishing anger and pain..rejecting everything inhumane

Gaping at this picture the only time I've smiled was when I was a child
Times changed and this upward curving of the corners of the mouth is no longer my style
'Why so serious? ' I REALLY can't say
I guess there's a time to BE frivolous and for games which I don't wanna play

What can I say about me? .. Hmmm
I wish I was an only child
But it's just my brother and I
I always wanted a sister
But like i said before I rather be a loner
I revel in consummation
And one day I'll succumb to my dreams and aspiration
With each coming day I learn something new about myself
I'm a writer, a optimist and I'm an untimely poetess

I love me some Anita
And I'll love her forever..
She is a perfectionist
She has even told me that she'll stop at nothing for fear of becoming a mere statistic
The best compliment you could get is the one you to yourself
But isn't that self praise...and self praise is no praise
I'm a people pleaser..I give nothing but the best NEVER leaving your mouth with a bad taste

I am a mystery..I am reserve
I am not sure my words reflect skill and verve
Anyways most times I keep to myself
And if I do I lime with those of the opposite sex
Nice to learn a thing or two
I enjoy hearing things from a different point of view
Who is Anita C.R. Khelawan?
To some I'd like to be their world and to other just a figment of their imagination
Who is Anita C.R. Khelawan?
Stop looking for faults and flaws
I am just a simple yet earnest lady with a kind of sort out game plan
I am part of the First Great Cause!


'Who is Anita? what is she,
That all our swains commend her?
Holy, fair, and wise is she;
The heaven such grace did lend her,
That she might admired be.'

This is my life & it is as good as it gets
I live for today not tomorrow with no regrets.