I Am Me Poem by Kira Travis

its that moment when you don't
want to be touched or held or anything.
You don't want to have your friends
around you or even near you, .. not even family.
Like your despairingly disgusted with
yourself an yet its only you,
you have to blame for this feeling.
i don't know if i am but
i haven't been the friend i know i can be.
i'm not the person i was. I am me. its all me.
i may be influenced by others
dreams or wants or thoughts or actions but
i still made the choices i made an they still are me.
I am Me.
I will apologize but at the same time
i have to know what it is i'm apologizing for.
i don't understand how i can lose friends an
then gain friends but not have friends you see.
I am me.
when friends say they will never leave
but leave anyway, you feel strange
they come back to you no different
then the day
they left you
but they are,
you are just remembering them
in that shell of what they were that day you last saw them
no, knew them
we all experience a number of different situations everyday
that change us either for the better or for the worse
you never know though
until you sit back an
it just hits you while your reading or anything.
Its scary to think that I am me an they?
Who are they?
My friends, who are you to me?
Who am I to you?
A pawn.
A Confidante.
A friend.
Your Lover.
Who am I?
when I see all the choices I've made,
It i just don't understand why i am this for you.
Advantages.
thats what it is.
an advantage.