I Am Ugly Poem by Smriti Gupta

This is suffocating
It’s taking me deep
Sins shout aloud
And fortunes go blind
Solitary sufferings
And God turns deaf
Mistakes and punishments
Go hand in hand
Damn this world
Which swears love
Still it is empty
To an innocent scream!
I hate being alone
Still it embraces me
Repentance is of no use
So I’ve stopped feeling guilty
Now Devil is my God
He still loves me
What good white has got
Now I’m going to turn ugly!
It is dark here very dark
I can’t feel any light
It is good to be unkempt
And shriveled up sometimes
I’ve been adopted
And I’m being taken care of
I’m away from a pretending world
Where tears go unnoticed
I’m free here
Yes I’m free here God
From you and your atrocities
You may parade them naked
Or enslave them till death
Now devil’s my God
And he still loves me!