I Could.. But Then.. Poem by Shannon Nicole

I could say that I was feeling alright,
But then I'd be lying.
I could say that I was feeling distant,
Because that's all I know that's right.
I could say I was feeling awake,
But I know that I'm really asleep.
I could say that I was breathing fairly,
But I know I'd lose my breath at any minute now.
I could say that my heart was beating slowly,
But I only knew it was beating real fast.
I could say I haven't been smiling,
But you'd read my mind and know I was.
I could say that my eyes have darkened,
But I know you'd look at me say 'liar'.
I know you look at me and think I'm someone that's different,
But if you really look at me..
You'll know I'm really the same.

(I lost train of thought..)