I Could Not Discover Myself Poem by Arijit Kar

I could just not discover myself
I could just not discover myself
In this lonely ever looking earth
Did not find the existence of mine
What the existence is and belonging to
I am looking eyes still, everything unseen
This not is the forgetfulness the forgivings
But the crime I shall do and did perhaps
Not to flying as a free bird was that
The left that I used as new, the hope
My rearing was so simple not a worthy one
Society made me close my eyes and watch one
The universe looks different in this way
It is different, so different as I am
My identity never could I found
Unknown becomes much known
Simplicity does not remain same
I lose, I cease, I reveal, I conceal
Horror grabs me, hallucination jerks
Earth under my legs disappear gradually
I sink, darkness catches, I run, my legs helpless
I die, can not discover still- - Who am I?