I Had 'Had' Enough Poem by Lawrence S. Pertillar

I have sought to seek,
No personal purpose...
To brag about efforts,
The Creator has blessed me...
With both strength and ability,
To remain focused with discipline...
On endeavors I've been given.
That thrives to keep me driven,
Endlessly it seems.

And ironic it is,
I have never had a need...
To feed on attention to get.
With or without it to have others believe,
My achievements made with steps taken...
Were done to make mistakes,
To do to correct them with lots of sweat...
Disappointments and heartache not to fake.

Only God knows the ways,
Throughout my life I have been tested.
And if what I do appears outwardly easy,
No one can say they were there observing...
Doing what I have accomplished,
Laying on my back napping.
As I slept to get plenty of rest.
Or wasted my time away with others chatting,
While I took suggestions as to what I should do next.

I see no purpose,
To brag about my efforts.
Or endeavors I have managed to achieve.
I see no purpose to brag about this.
Nor embellish the fact,
How I got up off my knees...
After I had 'had' ENOUGH,
Doing that to believe...
I was following God's wishes.
And God had been pleased,
To see me stay that way.
With allowing my faith to fade.

I had 'had' ENOUGH one day.
And God and I had a confrontation.
And needless to say.
But say I will...
God assisted in the moving of those obstacles.
Since God knew His wishes I wanted to fulfill,
Were being delayed with those obstacles...
In my way.

So I see no purpose,
To brag about my efforts endeavored.
God knows when I said,
I had 'had' ENOUGH of all the pointless stuff...
No pretentions were attempted to be made,
To escape from the testing 'I' did not create.