I Hate Me Poem by Nikki Addleton

I hate me
Who ive become
Your ugly
Your disgusting
I punish myself
But why?
I dont understand
I cant be the ugliest
I AM!
The walls are moving in
I dont care
Dont want to live
I hate me
I hate my body
God take me away
Take my last breath
Dont look in the mirror
You hate what you see
Wish i could be someone else
Take away the missery
Id of been better off
Not being born
No one would miss me
45,59,67, ...72 pills
voices in my head say
''END IT''
I look up at the sky
I want to be a star
Calling out with my cries
Swallowing the lot
Take away the pain
Of being me
Being me no more
I say goodbye

~nikki addleton~ 08/07/10