I'M Bad Poem by Kitty Marie Lucas

</>i've rehearsed scenes
and lines
that'll never be
you musn't know my sincerity
the insecurities plaguing me
and it's my fault
for being naive
it's always my fault
everything

it hurts that you don't know me
when i've haunted you so long
the only things
that make me alive
are the things
you say are wrong
treat me better.
treat me like i matter.
i want my voice.
you never gave me a choice.

that fact that i've been cheated
makes me what i lack
apparently, i didn't deserve it
...i was not aware of that
beneath the facade
i need to scream
i feel like showing what 'NO' is
but i'm not allowed feelings

i'm bad, i'm bad, i'm bad
you say
so that's all that ever shows
told i'm 'incapable and incomplete'
you insist if i leave without you
then everyone will know