I`m Not What I Appear Poem by ashley roberts

The sun rising up the darkness depleting
The children in bed eyes closed and sleeping
Dreaming of fun good times and happy things
I wake up scared from the demons in my dreams
I see the world passing by good morning to all then i cry
The screams and hurt i caused makes me want to die
My soul feels defeated i sit back and wonder why
I try to go back to sleep but i just sit in fear
So scared of what will happen life`s so unclear
Trying to hide my sadness trying to hold back the tears
After all the hurt and abuse over all of the hate filled years
I stand ready for the world and say ill act strong
But i`m not what i appear