I'M Only Going To Say This Once Poem by Heidi K. Haskell

I am
Slowly disappearing
Into a horrible creature
I hoped I'd never become.
Nag nag nag, peck peck peck,
Repeat repeat repeating myself
Until I forget how to say things
Only just once.
I am
Struggling to keep my head above
This endless sea
Of other people's apathy.
Swamped, doused, tsunami'ed
By people who won't be,
Can't be bothered to pay
Attention.

I am
Becoming domineering -
An unsightly feature.
Incrimentally numb
Drag drag drag, drek drek drek,
Bored bored broed on the shelf.
Layering ennui, like a tree's rings
Making me a dunce.
I am
Wanting to get rid of
This need to be
The end to Reason's atrophy.
I've been Team-Mommied
By no one else but me,
Hoist by my own cliche
Condescension.

I confess, I want dra-
Matic results in a hurry.
But in the end, waiting will not be
The worst crime.
Let this be my mantra:
Let it go, try not to worry,
And forget 'em if they don't hear me
The first time.