I'M Tired Of This World Poem by mona martinez

i'm lost in a world,
that starting to not make sense,
i wish ppl will stop telling me,
stuff is normal,
when in my world,
it's very painful,
for a selfish prick,
to mess up your learning times,
i just wanted to be accepted,
but now it don't seem like ppl accept me,
they just don't see,
why i'm so different,
and sometimes everything they want,
i feel like at times,
i am either this sexual being,
and other times i am a nun,
that would be happy,
in a world without sex,
ppl i want to understand me,
are ppl who just don't get it,
to them it feels like,
'oh she going throught that again? '
like i even have a choice,
right now i choose to end my life,
but i know that won't solve much,
what will it really do?
the ppl i care for,
i won't get to see,
my life i'm trying to start,
i won't see the finish project,
i hate feeling this way,
it's a strong feeling of anger and hate,
i hate it,
i'm use to being a loving person,
not this person that want to hurt men,
just becuz one man hurt me,
but i have to realize,
that not guys are the same,
some are nice and some are jerks.